I’m still thinking about all the shit we’ve been through,
Although seeing you is no longer a truth,
I was trapped in my thoughts,
Too high to be committed,
To all the thing I’ll be missing,
Couldn’t settle down or just fucking listen,
Had a temper that lasted only a minute,
Only a minute.
Being too focused on living in the moment,
Caused me to look past the love I should have been showing,
I was living slow but that’s no reason to talk shit,
All those mistakes are really making me feel sick,
Making me feel sick now.
You were the one but I treated you wrong,
Had way too big of a head,
Now I’m just singing sad songs,
Couldn’t give you what was yours all along,
A little bit of space,
Or all of my time,
Now instead of holding you,
I’ll be holding these rhymes.
Maybe I’m all wrong and these aren’t the facts,
But I had you first while you had my heart last,
Treated you like shit,
Pulled you out of your class,
Made myself look like a total ass,
But what it means now is that I’m hitting the gas,
Running 2,000 miles away to forget the past.
To try and forget the past.
Yet it’s all right here with me,
There’s no way to escape,
I still think about the times that were all really great,
It might be a joke or pathetic at least,
But holding on to them is my only form of release.
Nothing I can do will bring me back to you,
You put up a wall after all of those fights,
Told me not to call,
Probably blocked me too,
But when it’s all said and done I’m still in love with you,
Still in love with your smile and the way you’d look through,
Most of my faults or the wrongs I would do,
Now it’s up to you to see that my hate wasn’t true,
It was just a reaction to when I was loosing you,
When I was loosing you.
SF – 09-06-2019 @ 6:00 a.m.