Poem things, Unfinished songs

See You Soon


Lil peep said it best,

“I would scream your name with my last breath”,
I can’t get over this,
My memories are yours for controlling,
You know why?
Even though I’m not right for us,
I want no one else.

But,
When you love someone that loves you last,
That love falls into the past,
The root of your pain,
I pushed you away
Never knowing what to say.
We were always so complicated,
Missunderstanding and feelings,
Left unknown and unwanted.

I always wanted to help you shine,
When i had to chance to call you mine,
It didnt matter how bad things got,
You made everything feel just right.
Made everything disapear into bliss
Its the person that you are that I miss.
Not the feelings I list.

Will you ever see things the way I do
I couldnt hate you even if I tried,
No matter the problems,
I just want you to share them,
With me, connecting and relating
Even if life gets draining.

I’ll write poem after poem,
Loose myself in piece after piece,
But until you recapture my heart,
My life, it falls apart.
definable by dissapointment,
I dissatisfied you beyond belief.

But now, these words go out to you,
So you know even as I forgot myself,
It was you who kept me here,
Couldn’t leave this life without you near.
For now I’ll just keep tipping this beer,
Ill see you soon or in the end of my years.


NV. – written on April 8th, 2018 started @ 1:37 p.m. finished @ 2:00 p.m.

Poem things

Fleeing


It has always been
You and me

You and me

But at times
I am way to consumed

By myself

At this point
There is nothing that

Helps

You fled so very far
I am sorry

I failed us

Could have tried harder

Harder than you can foresee

But not hard

Not hard enough

She had it
Had my heart

It is still hers
But she no longer

Holds it

She’s trying to forget
All that’s my fault

I feel like fleeing

Fleeing from this
I can no longer

Handle it

The misinterpretations
The breaks

I’m broken

and breaking,

By the separation
Of us

She made me
Turned into

My bliss

Now without her

I’m sick.


NV. Written on April 1st, 2018 started @ 9:45 a.m. finished @ 8:21 p.m.