Lil peep said it best,
“I would scream your name with my last breath”,
I can’t get over this,
My memories are yours for controlling,
You know why?
Even though I’m not right for us,
I want no one else.
When you love someone that loves you last,
That love falls into the past,
The root of your pain,
I pushed you away
Never knowing what to say.
We were always so complicated,
Missunderstanding and feelings,
Left unknown and unwanted.
I always wanted to help you shine,
When i had to chance to call you mine,
It didnt matter how bad things got,
You made everything feel just right.
Made everything disapear into bliss
Its the person that you are that I miss.
Not the feelings I list.
Will you ever see things the way I do
I couldnt hate you even if I tried,
No matter the problems,
I just want you to share them,
With me, connecting and relating
Even if life gets draining.
I’ll write poem after poem,
Loose myself in piece after piece,
But until you recapture my heart,
My life, it falls apart.
definable by dissapointment,
I dissatisfied you beyond belief.
But now, these words go out to you,
So you know even as I forgot myself,
It was you who kept me here,
Couldn’t leave this life without you near.
For now I’ll just keep tipping this beer,
Ill see you soon or in the end of my years.
NV. – written on April 8th, 2018 started @ 1:37 p.m. finished @ 2:00 p.m.